It’s little late for a new year writing but I feel there are lot of things that I would put on paper and get it off my chest. I been thinking lately weather it was a mistake or I had done the right thing . I was wondering what could have been the chances of getting probably the same things somewhere else. I’m happy excited and at the same point of time little confused sad and worried.
This place this magical place had already given me so much and never thought that one day I will have to face such a situation. It’s tiring that everyday in this new year I have to stay away from people of my age not because I want to but because it demands. Today I was going through the names of the people whom I am in touch with and have more than a cordial relationship . So there’s is this entrepreneur whom we had invited during a conclave in the university. He was very surprised to get that invitation and was constantly honoured to get such a chance. Now going back to the current situation of mine, I have been involved in a probable miscommunication and a horribly misfortunate event with my batchmates hence losing most of them. When all that happened I was little worried and thought why did all happened. There was a hell lot of discussion with my family about it. Me usually being me decided to be calm and move on and think maybe it happened for the best . I went home to get off my emotions and before I was leaving I had perfectly planned event . My phone broke. Well that had way more emotions involved than just that. Well a family member jumped to help in the most surprising way. I was almost bankrupt ( not in true sense) and she said I will pay off , when I knew she wasn’t in a condition to do any such thing. The substitute phone had 2 features only even after being a smart phone , calling and music player. I switched off my heart and concentrated on my lungs and went home. The New Year happened with no internet and calls which wasn’t bad either and I slept back. The “New Year” had a surprising start. Managed to bring the list smile and came back to the second home. It was a new home knowing the mess that has happened. I insisted myself to forget and move on. Finding myself with a lot of free time I started something really out of the box and unusual with my routine. Well what was more surprising was the kind of small things happening.
The problem laid was I thought maybe the mess had left a mark on my clothes and I wasn’t able to rub them off even after New clothes. What I forgot was that it was New clothes and new beginning (a concept I don’t completely believe in). New people approached and surprising compliments came up. I wouldn’t believe any of that and thought too good to be true. What I realised over the time was as children when we lost a book or we ruined we would be happy when a new book was gifted and would be rather overwhelmed. Today the thing was opposite , was still on stuck to old stuff. The thing I lost was the nature’s way of bringing happiness . Instead of a book I was getting pens,colours,erasers,copies,brushes and everything to write a new book and I was unhappy about the ruined book.
So coming back to the entrepreneur who came to the University, he still had the picture of him being honoured in the University . That told me that he might still be awe of the event. I had almost overlooked that. I took that as an event and he way more ( he had just had graduated from the University barely a year ago and was getting a guest treatment). Finally I saw the new stationary I have. Way bigger than that book. Maybe it still affects the loss of the book but it’s exciting to have to write your own book to relish.
My family which includes all people who might be just a senior, friend, mentor, sister, brother, parents or my life became my Angels. Got my loving efficient phone back which could do way more than calling and music. Bankruptcy no more a problem. It was like a constant second life supporting me. Well it feels like a charge change in tracks and train. Well definitely not leaving my luggage behind.
Life always tends to project problems big and happiness small or maybe we do that. I love this feeling of having the people around now. It’s like the cake which went through a lot of heat and finally gets to meet the icing . Lot of time to get it ready with the cherry and the decorations but I’m sure the trimming and removal parts are done with. Will be still waiting for that cherry on the top of mine.
P.S- My cake is Black Forest and it has 2 layers of cake with icing and cream in between and that it put to make the cake tastier and stronger.